Tangled Love

Have you ever seen two people dating and automatically started to say those intense three words which is "I Love You"?

I believe you do.

I wonder.
Have you ever wondered if they had loved each other and never known
Or just say it because they think they have to?

Love isn't something you give away so easily.
It's a delicate thing,and it's hard to choose who deserves it.Not everyone deserves your love.
Love is what makes the world once seems harmony.

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Everything was simple.Everything was fine.
We knew we couldn't have each other back and we knew why.
We tried to move on and we did,but these little feelings came back.
And that feeling just stricken us in not a proper way.

We both noticed each other drifting.But our mind speaks "Please explain."

I didn't want to loose him,so I tried to deal with the pain.It's hard to be with him.It's getting harder each day.

He always acts so beautifully and seems favourable when we talk through social messaging.
But when it comes to meeting him in real life,especially school,I could see how different he was.

He oftenly looks at me when he passed by the corridor,I could see him staring on my eyes.I don't know whether it is his usual expression,but I could see pain in his eyes.
Pain.
Regrets.
Sorrow.
All at once.I can see them patently.I try my hardest not to cry when I see him.
I always want to smile,however this time I can't.Something about him still traumatize me.

The way he looks at me in these past few months is different.
I remembered when he was so carefree and huffy around me.I remember them well.
He was missed.
So does myself.

I am not persuading him to star over tho.
Because I stll can't trust him.

Trusting someone means walking with your eyes closed.While trusting no one is a sure way to lose those you hold close.

To trust him means to crush my wall,and if to lose him again means losing my all.
Going against instinct and not protecting myself.

Thinking of him makes me feel so blue.This heartache makes me want to cry.
But instead of tears,I express it with a sigh because I don't want the heartless people to see.

It sometimes makes a big hole when I see and follow your stare,it leads to her and at times,tears are going to make my vision blur.I know it's pathetic,but when you talk to me,I feel pleased and happy.

I know that someday,he's just going to be a memory to remember when I'm lonely.

Someday is not yet today.It might still be far,far away.
But I hope you'll notice anyway that my heart is breaking.

And even though we both are smiling,just look in our eyes and you'll see that we're dying.