Constrained

I remember the way his eyes would light up when he smiled
And the way he would smile which made me smile too..

I remember how happiness was just an ordinary feeling
And wasn't something that we wished for..

I miss all those little things which have somehow slipped away.

I miss all those little things about us,really.
The things that made us strong,
And made us promise this was forever no matter what went wrong.

But as time went on and months began to take their toll
We forgot the little things that filled us.
Our hearts and souls.

Life and Love can be hard and it may hurt.
Sometimes we do or say something we never really meant
And before we can take it back,the pain has sunk in.

I couldn't imagine
That a day or time would ever come and change everything
About our life and love..
But it did

Months and time
Trials and troubles
All have taken us on a roller coaster.
That sometimes didnt seem to end,
And before we knew it our hearts were tired.

So tired and worn out from all we had seen,
All we had been through and we'd experienced.
And love somehow turned into comfort

The comfort of knowing someone was there
But those feelings of excitement and passion somehow faded along the way
And now we're left wondering just where it all went

He innocently tell me our time has come and gone
And that we can't go back but I dont believe it.
And this time,he is wrong..

The distance he puts between us is nothing more than time lost.
A place for his feelings to hide,is now finally revealed.
And now I can finally hear the little feeling and/or love in his voice ;
Everytime we talk

I can never manage and maintain my patience well..
But this time,it has no end..Especially when it comes to loving him

There are times that we need to talk
Yet the words never come.
there are times when we need to understand,
Yet we don't always know how.

At our lowest times
During our toughest moments
Things seem to get complicated and confusing

Leaving us to wonder,
what the other is actually thinking or feeling.
Often we let pride get in the way
And we lose the power and sense to communicate.

I am now becoming so hopeless about what'd happen next between us
He told me that he 'kind of' regret breaking up with me.
He told me how mean he was
And claimed that he is actually not a good one for me.

He admits that he actually dissapoints himself for doing this to me.
He told me that I look a lot like chasing for his love

But in fact,I didnt....
Well I do tho,but not in a wrong way.

I really hate the fact that he wants to start over
In a not proper way.

He has a half intention from his own heart.
An intention for us to start over.

But really,all I want is just him to follow his heart.

I swear,if he isn't willing to start over,I'll be fine
Even though itt kind of dissapoint me,actually.

However,what's even the point of starting over
When one of us is indesirous ?

What am I supposed to do..
When he is so confused for what choice to take
And he doesn't want me to bother and stop him in choosing the choice
The choice for what we're going to face next

I want him to stop.
Because this thing is so unhealthy for the two of us
And it also breaks my heart.

The good thing is just that,
He's actually trying to make sure that his feelings won't fade
So that he won't hurt me,again.

Because if it happens again,it's him who'll always be blamed.

Tell me it's not really over

Tell me we didn't just say goodbye

Tell me we can begin again

Tell me we're worth one last try ~